in the midst of lithography, wafer processing and what-have-yous

semiconductor technology isn't easy, especially with all those weird unexplanable equations from ole hansen. i'm beginning to wonder how i ended up going into microelectronics. i think i copied my friend's specialization choice... as usual. heh. and as i was looking through the fyp proposals and 'stalking' profs biographies and research interests while trying to predict which projects are offered by the better profs, i started to ponder (again) where i'll be and what i'll do when i graduate. but this time i don't really feel like copying others' choices. so many things have changed since i entered uni, and more after being on sep. in uni i've met a couple of people who influenced and inspired me greatly, and on sep it's the forced circumstance of independence.
well, during every exam period i always think of one person. it's hard to admit but it's my ee2007 lab ga. yeah THAT one. haha. it is already one year since he provoked me with his complacency and yet my msn nick still says 'päwz2zprίηt - 4.90>4.87.'. pretty amusing to recall how we tried to show off to each other then. but i think that spurred me to do better in the subsequent semesters and also that's probably why i think of him when i'm studying. but apart from his puffed up effrontery, he sincerely shared with me about he wants to achieve in life and told me that i shld also plan for the future.
so what do i really want?
i don't know. there're so many choices. i could stay in a stable job, get married and have kids, like any typical singaporean. i could be falling asleep on some nanowires and transistors, with research papers strewn all over the place. or i could be attending some conference, or lecturing, or...
*please pause for a moment of silence*
still studying my lithography and wafer processing notes. good luck to me. sigh.